At the dinner table… having dinner.
Raven: Mommy, whats wrong? You aren’t talking. You aren’t smiling.
Me: Just thinking.
Me: Grown up stuff.
Raven: Maybe you should talk about it. I’m not a grown up but maybe you can talk to me?
Me: Thanks baby… but I doubt you can help me.
Raven: Well, can you tell me anyway?
Me: I’m just thinking about my life. My purpose. And what I am going to do when I grow up?
Raven: But… Mommy? You are a grown up.
Me: I know. Which is why it’s even more frustrating… because I’m grown and I still don’t know what I’m doing with my life.
Raven: But …. you’re a mommy! You cook. You clean. You take care of us. That’s what you do with your life.
Me: Yeah I know. But there is more to life. I want to do more. I like taking care of you guys. But the cooking and cleaning? I don’t necessarily like it. I do it because I have to.
Raven: Which makes you even MORE awesome. Because you sacrifice! You do things that you have to do when you don’t want to. You could have the house dirty and not feed us good food… but that’s not what you do. You keep the house nice for us. You come to our school and help. You’re a mom. An awesome mom. That should make you happy!
Me: It should! And it does! But I think I want more. What do you think I should be when I grow up? What do you think I’m good at?
Raven: Ummm…. Well??? … I think you are a good problem solver.
Me: How so?
Raven: Well… it seems like you are ALWAYS on the phone talking to someone and giving advice. You’re always talking to people to help them solve their problems. You’re kinda like that bald Vanzant lady and Oprah.
Me: Oh really? So you think I’m a problem solver?
Raven: Yup. A good one!
Me: Well if I start solving problems, then maybe I will be famous and travel the world to solve lots of peoples problems! What do you think about that?
Raven: Wait… does that mean that you will be out of town?
Raven: For more than one day at a time?
Raven: Oh… well then in that case, you need to just need to stay home and keep talking to your friends on the phone and solve their problems…. because I like it when I come home after school and you are home.